So after my rather angry blog about a month ago I figured it's about time for an update. Things have certainly not changed around here, but I am looking at things in a new light. I know things have happened that are well out of my control and I have learned that I cannot be mad or angry about it. It's all in the past and that's where it is going to stay. I have to focus on me and what I'm doing in my life and not what people have done to me in the past. The past is the past for a reason. It's full of things that happened, mistakes that have been learned from, and good times that have been remembered. Do I think I will forget the resentments and anger I have for certain people? Not at all, but I do think I will be able to forgive them for what they've done. Will I tell them that? Probably not. In my mind I know that if I am able to forgive them I will feel better when dealing with them. So on that note I move on to a new topic.
In less than two short months Lauren and I will be together for 2 whole years. I know it does not sound like a long time, but the point is that Lauren and I have been together nearly 2 years. That makes this A.) The longest steady and stable relationship I've ever been in. B.) The most I've changed as a person in two years. C.) The happiest I've ever been. Sounds like a lot over two years does it not? Well allow me to explain before you think "He's crazy." Relationships lasting about a year is not anything new to me. Usually the relationship is over or such a mess that it can't even be called a relationship at that point, but this time things were different. I've been through some rough times and Lauren has managed to forgive me every time throughout the last two years. At the same time I've been more than willing to help her with whatever she needs. When we first met I was the definition of unstable. I had been out of a relationship for roughly a month and was the definition of broken mentally. In fact the day she said something to me I death glared her hard. After thinking about it... I realized I should not have done that, so I tried to talk to her the following day and could tell right away how awesome she was. Then some sub human decided to inform me that she had just gotten out of a long relationship and not to even think about getting close to her. I'm glad I did not listen to that advice. After a short time we began going out and things for me have never been the same. I've become so strong and happy (yes I relapse sometimes, but who doesn't) as a person and I know if I didn't have her backing me up the whole time I would not be able to be who I am today. There were times where people tried to break us whether it be by rumors or physically trying to move in on one of us, but we remained loyal to each other and never wavered. Yes we have had our fights and yes I've made some stupid moves that nearly cost me dearly during our first year together, but looking back... This second year has been even better than the first. My head is on more straight and let me be the first to tell you that the third year looks incredible.
Right now I am looking to winter break to go on a road trip with Lauren down to Atlanta, Georgia to visit family and one of the largest aquariums in the world. I'm hoping that we will be able to spend a week or so away from New Jersey together. Then in June I'll be going with Lauren and her family to Rivera Maya. That trip will be amazing from checking out Mayan ruins to snorkeling in the Caribbean Sea. Not to mention the resort and the fun that will ensue there.
So have things really gotten harder over the past 2 years? It's funny, in a way yes. Life has gotten harder, but at the same time, I have a great friend in my girlfriend that makes it seem so much brighter and easier than it is. When I loose sight of that for a short time I see how hard life is, but I quickly realize that there is more to life than the hard parts. For those hard parts though... I have Lauren who I know will always be there to help me out. As I am and will be for her. I love you Lauren!
